Ever faced hard times financially? I had then and am even now. Today’s throwback is an older poem of mine called “Two F’s.”
As I read it now, I realize how much hard seasons can teach us.
Life happens. Unexpected expenses happen. We make financial mistakes. Sometimes we find ourselves trying to stretch what we have farther than it can go.
But I’m learning that financial struggles aren’t just an opportunity to learn how to manage money better. They can also teach us about trust, stewardship, contentment, discipline, and our dependence on God.
I’m learning to have a healthier relationship with money while also learning to trust God to provide.
And one thing I’m reminding myself of is this: being in a financially difficult season doesn’t mean God has forgotten you.
Sometimes the lesson isn’t simply about getting more money. Sometimes it’s about learning how to handle what we have, making wiser choices, and trusting God through the process.
So today, I’m taking a look back at something I wrote years ago and realizing that some lessons are still being learned.
I know this year has been rough for many of us. Hold on and please don’t give up.
Have you, or are you currently going through, a difficult financial season? What has it taught you?
Here’s “Two F’s.” 📖✍🏾

I received my report card and I got two F’s
But I didn’t fail a class
I failed financially and being without money Is kicking me in my rear end bad
I have a pot to piss in
But have no clue
As to how to pay all these bills when due
Why do I have to make life decisions when it comes to money?
Get gas or buy medicine
Eat a meal or pay a bill
Man should I take the hard work of another
Or put on a mask and go skipping through the bank’s steel
Make fast money fast or just give up
Why must my soul put up a fight, when I know what’s right?
I stretch my check till it can’t stretch no more
I can’t count on my bank account
And if my pockets were muscles, they’d feel soar
The love of money is the root of all evil
This I know I don’t love money, but I need it
I need it to survive
Shoot I can’t even pay my tithes
I budget well or so I think
I was tithing faithfully and I gave to others even when it was my last
So where did I go wrong
To experience tough times this bad
My mortgage due, my light bill too,
Water bill, credit card bill, student loans,
Shall I go on
My babies need food
My car needs gas
I got one dollar and no emergency stash
Disappointed and stressed
Trying not to worry
But it’s frustrating when the frequent response is decline
And the word of the day is less
I pray and I pray
And I even have a job
but don’t have much to pay Uncle Sam or pay back Uncle Bob
I have dreams
I have goals
But if I don’t have money or notoriety
To the world
they are just ideas and no’s
I am so consistently broke
That my tears need raincoats
I den cried till I can’t anymore
Once ignored calls to bill collectors are promises unsecured
Not knowing if I can back a payment for sure
Being broke isn’t fun
But I guaranteed it is someone whose finances are registered on E
And going thru worse than me
Dying because they have nothing at all to eat
Nor options or resources
So why should I complain?
I thank the Lord for getting me through
And for realizing the truth
The truth is I don’t trust Him
like I should
The truth is He made a way before, so why not now
The truth is I fed all my worthless idols with luxury and my time
They got all my plenty and took every last dime
The truth is I gave without seeking God’s wisdom
And instead I let Jealousy, Buy-A-Friend, Keep-up-with-the Jones and Slothful deplete my resources
And take the spoon out of my child’s mouth
The truth is I put all my faith in my job and other worldly sources
My job gives me allowance to keep me coming back
But my Lord gives me more than money and His Word does a better job of keeping me on track
The truth is I don’t tithe because I am afraid that if I trust the Lord
With what He gave me, He won’t give it back
The truth is I forget He knows what I need before I even ask
And though tests will come I will survive
Because my Lord is alive
And His bank account is greater than all the banks and gold in the world
So I am learning not to utter I am broke
Because words are powerful
My Lord has plenty
And I don’t have to live on Decline
Because the Lord didn’t bring me this far
To leave me behind
I will reach Prosperity Lane
Instead of always living check to check and pockets drained
I will continue to pray my Two F’s away
And ask for clarity
On how to get a B For budget,
C for cash And A for Accepted and Never Denied
I will pay all my debts and owe no man nothing except love
I will learn to obey God and trust Him to provide
I will depend on Him and do more than just get by…













