What Is the Evidence That What I am Doing Is Working?

Surrender your anxiety! Be silent and stop your striving and you will see that I am God. I am the God above all the nations, and I will be exalted throughout the whole earth.
Psalms 46:10 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/psa.46.10.TPT

Tears slid down my cheeks as I walked hopelessly to the bus stop. Another day of routine coated in restlessness, another recognizably minor event yet heavy and familiar enough to cause anxiety and allow the enemy to usher in doubt and lies that nothing will change bombarded my morning. Feeling defeated left me in sobs and asking God “what is the evidence of what I am doing that it is actually working”. You may be saying the same thing and looking for evidence that your trying to remain faithful in the things and pursuit of God is not in vain because the world and the enemy are trying to convince you of this lie. You may be striving for things and progress to make something happen that God can make happen in less time if you learn to trust and obey Him. You may be looking for evidence that God sees your pain and barrenness in the midst of your faithfulness and much sowing. And in all of this you may have spiritual relapses and doubt and sin may be creeping in. Thank God for His mercy and forgiveness. He wants your undivided heart, not perfection, which is false and aimed for in our own strength. We can do nothing apart from God and God wants us to instead aim for spiritual maturity.

But as I walked on, the Holy Spirit patted me on the soul and comforted me to the bus stop. It was at work, tears no longer present, heaviness tucked away, and after my morning greetings with “how was your weekend” that God would answer me. Someone asked me if I was familiar with excel sheets and from there as I proceeded to try and help with her document I realized again that God listens and answers, and even moreso He cares. She informed me that as I stood next to her desk she basically said she felt like she was being led by God to encourage me. Some of the things she said was you are not going to please everybody, God wants you to balance and know who you are. And she also told me that I need to stop beating myself up. I teared up as she expressed what I knew what was God answering me through her.

Have you been feeling defeated? Are you having a hard time learning to rest in God? Are you realizing you haven’t been seeing yourself through the eyes of God? Are you beating yourself up and experiencing condemnation?

Know that God is listening to your heart, collecting your tears, and wanting to dialogue with you about everything that doesn’t just concerns His heart but your heart also. Know that there is a Comforter that brings you comfort and healing, guidance and hope. Know that the efficacy of the blood of Jesus still works and is efficient to do all what it was shed to do, and that is to save, protect, and deliver you.

While receiving this knowledge through the Word of God, proceed to take one day at a time and pray. Catch, check, and change every thought that does not line up with God’s word about you or your life. Hold on to your faith by the Word of God and the love of Christ. Press forward. And learn to be still at the same time. He says, “be still and know that He is God.” Psalm 46:10 That means recognize who our holy, faithful and sovereign God is. And that means to stop striving and trying to run the universe; you are not qualified to do so mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, etc. It doesn’t mean to be passive or unproductive, but it does mean to learn to depend on God. Moreover, that also means learn to rest in Him for He will be your power, love, and a sound mind in the midst of busyness, trouble, chaos, distractions, feelings of emerging hopelessnes.

Trust God and Set The Captive Free:

Seasons come and go but God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. And He is good and faithful, periodtt.

What question(s) are you asking God today? Have quiet time with God and ask Him. And expect an answer.

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Let Go and Let God

This is one of my fave posts, I wrote several years ago for a blog titled EmpowerMoments. Writing and editing for EmpowerMoments was so awesome and it pulled so much out of me. This one particular post when God made me aware of how I was holding on to my life through a movie scene. Check it out below! And to reread the original post and to watch the video of the scene, here is the link: Holding On Too Tight!/

A while back, I was thinking about the lessons and messages that I have been receiving about surrendering. At that very moment a movie scene popped up in my mind. It was a scene from a comedy/drama/romance movie called Ghost (1990). In this particular scene, con-artist Oda Mae (played by Whoopi Goldberg) is instructed by Sam (Patrick Swayze) to give a FOUR MILLION DOLLAR check to nuns because Sam wants to make sure the money is used for good and out of the hands of his friend/colleague Carl.

With clinched teeth, a forced smile, and a tight grip, Oda Mae has a hard time giving up that check. I like to give, but I probably would have a hard time releasing that check too. Four million dollars! Watching this scene is hilarious, but the Holy Spirit helped me to realize that Oda Mae responds like many of us, and particularly me, with our lives.

If you cling to your life, you will lose it, and if you let your life go, you will save it. (Luke 17:33 NLT) Maybe we grip our lives because we want to continue holding onto the control of our lives and do things our way. Maybe it is because we want to obey and surrender only when it is convenient. Perhaps we think that if we surrender, we are going to lose our lives physically. It is possible that we believe that God doesn’t want us to have joy and fulfillment or just maybe we think life is satisfactory the way it is. Even more, we are probably focused on pursuing worldly things or we lack patience and trust in God to do what He says and has proven He can do. In any event, we are afraid to let go and give control to God.

I must remember that when God created me, He didn’t intend for me to live independent of Him. Therefore, in order to move forward in my Christian walk, I must fully SURRENDER!

I have been gripping my life like Oda Mae gripped that check. I have been gripping everything that God wanted control over or wanted me to release. I have been gripping my many plans, my fears, my money, my concerns of what others think about me, my dating/love life (or lack thereof) and my need to do everything and be everything for everyone. I have even given Him areas of my life and subsequently I have taken them back. I’d say I believe and then the next minute I don’t believe. Jesus asked the boy’s father, “How long has he been like this?” “It has often thrown him into fire or water to kill him. But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.” “‘If you can’?”said Jesus. “Everything is possible for one who believes.” Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” (Mark 9:21-24 NIV)

Since I have been alerted to my lack of surrender to God, the Holy Spirit has helped me loosen my grip on my life and those areas that I gave God little to no access. I have also surrendered plans that were of good intentions because it wasn’t what God wanted me to do at the time. I have finally severed the last means of communication between me and my ex-boyfriend/first love; I am going to trust in God to bring a God-fearing, handsome man along just right for me. I have learned that I have to seek God’s counsel in everything I do. I have also learned that I can’t be everything for everyone. It is okay to take the ‘S’ (Superwoman) off my chest unless that ‘S’ stands for SURRENDER (everything to God).

Through the testimonies of Hannah and Ruth, I am reminded that when you trust God and let go, you gain so much more! Hannah, who yearned and prayed fervently for a child, gave her son back to the Lord. She promised God that if He gave her a son she would do this so she took him to the priest and allowed the priest to raise and ready him for his destiny. (1 Samuel 1:1 – 2:10) She made him a coat and visited him every year but she had to let go. Ruth left her family to go with Naomi, her deceased husband’s mother. She surrendered to God and a new course for her life. Consequently, she married again, gave birth to her first child, and was able to also bless Naomi—her mother-in-law.

Surrendering my life doesn’t necessarily mean I lose it physically. Instead I will gain my life, the life God designed for me all along with peace, fulfillment, and deeper intimacy with God. Surrendering my life doesn’t just benefit me, it benefits others too. Oda Mae didn’t get that money but she was able to help bless the nuns and their charity as well as help Sam unite with the love of his life, Molly, and save her from danger.

Dear Daddy,

Thank You for pruning me, defining my character, and setting me apart. It is not easy to go through this process, nor is it easy to render control of my life to You. But please help me let go! Help me to trust You and remember that my life is no longer my own. I am here to glorify You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Ladies, today I EMPOWER you to trust the Lord with your lives. After all, He knew you before you were in your mothers’ wombs. He created you and knows your purposes. He has your best interest at heart and will never fail you. So, don’t worry about your children. Put them in God’s hands. Release that person with forgiveness and God’s Love. Let go of that relationship He doesn’t approve of. Seek Him before you make plans. Let go of always needing control. God is qualified to manage your life more than you. When you let go, you’ll experience God’s liberty and peace!

What areas of your life do you need to surrender to God?

Dreams

Last night I had a dream that felt and seemed as if I was still awake. An evil spirit came towards me and simultaneously the face of a person flashed in my mind. I felt like also the spirit was the jezebel spirit. It frightened me. I awoke and prayed against any attacks.

I was able to go back to sleep and when I woke up again I graciously thanked God for the second dream I had. This one wasn’t from the enemy but from God. In my dream, I was floating in space. I felt like I was past the realm where Earth, Mars, and Venus dwelt. And there were no planets in sight to be seen.

Instead blackness with billions of stars and their light were all around me. I am afraid of heights and initially for a second I felt that fear. However, I began to feel like I was okay and I sung a beautiful song to God and about God. For the life of me, I can’t recall it but it was words I had not heard or written before. I was at peace and thrilled to be in this space (no pun intended). I felt like I was being drawn closer to God.

Then my dream ended with me singing another worship song, this one familiar and I was still floating in space, being drawn closer to God.

Psalm 100:2-4 Serve the LORD with gladness; Come before Him with joyful singing.

This season of my life has been once again stressful to the point I have cried out to God “I am tired.” One thing after the other. Even this weekend, due to certain circumstances, my emotions have been flaring like those flare up lights and I realize that much more prayer with strategies, fasting, and Godly wisdom is needed. The world needs us believers as well as our own spirits need us to be on our A game because there are angry, hurting people out here. There are children who need us. There are evil spirits out here that don’t take breaks. There are believers who went out to help save people but are out here drowning in the sea from our own issues. The devil is working overtime trying to distract us, overwhelm us, make us too busy, and steal our impacts and our joy. Some of us are just as distraught and frustrated as someone who is unsaved. So what needs to be done.

Isaiah 55:6-7 Seek the LORD while He may be found; Call upon Him while He is near.

Get back up and surrender to God. Surrender to God. Love God and obey God, and receive His love back. Receive His love back. God sees our pain and knows we need help. Time to be drawn closer to God.

Hebrews 10:22 let us draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water.

Time to be drawn closer to God. Draw us closer, God. Purify our hearts and renew our minds. When we are ready to give up, like I have been. Remind us, Lord, You are still there. And You will never leave us, nor forsake us. Let us not get weary in well doing.

Coloring Therapy for me!

The Feat of the Defeated

This week, a brief conversation with a stranger that began with an inquiry for change inspired this very post. After giving him the change, this conversation subsequently shifted to about God from me singing a praise song. “You are perfect in all of Your ways. You are perfect in all of Your ways, to us. You’re a good, good Father. It’s who You are. It’s who You are. It’s who You are, and I’m loved by You. It’s who I am, It’s who I am. It’s who I am.”

The stranger asked me about what I was singing. “I was praising God,” I said.

“You love God?” the stranger asked.

I told him yes.

Are You Being Consumed By The World Around You?

He replied that he too loved God and used to read the bible, but that he didn’t have time anymore to read the Bible. He basically said he didn’t have time anymore to read the Word because the world had consumed him. In fact, it did look like he was being consumed, but there are many of us being consumed and by different things. I remembered that God warned me not to let the world around me consume me.

Are you being consumed by the world around you? For some it may be drugs. Some it may be seemingly less harmful than that but still hindering our quality of life and relationships. For me it is distractions and busyness. What is consuming you?

Moreover, I told him that the reason he gave for not reading God’s Word and this particular time [we are living in] is all the more reason to press in to reading the Word of God. I also shared that he should still read it no matter if he feels like he didn’t deserve God [God’s love] or not. The fact is Jesus died for us all and He loves us unconditionally.

And remember that yourself.

But God!

We all have fallen short this week, and last week, and the week before last. Trying to get the help my mom needs after being injured had left both of us, mom and me, frustrated and me short of patience. I know I failed quite a few tests this week with two C’s (cussing and complaining). Maybe you too have regrets about how you handled some things this week? Maybe you had a much more difficult test to pass? Maybe you have been feeling unloved or unworthy for awhile because of life circumstances, others, or childhood incidents? And our enemy, the devil, sometimes sends these circumstances and experiences as attacks on our self esteem and souls to hinder us from seeing ourselves the way God does and from moving in our purpose. After all, how can you fulfill what God has called you to do if you do not walk in His authority and identity?

Maybe a lot has been going on with your family, like with my family? You have been pressing in prayer and reading God’s word but feel flabbergasted as to why things are not going right and one bad thing after the other is happening to you all. Maybe your dreams are not coming to fruition? Maybe you had to let that dream die to surrender it all to Him and have been getting tired of waiting. Yet, you are watching everyone enjoy their successes. Maybe you are in over your head in debt and are worried you will not be able to pay your bills and debts? Be encouraged though and do not feel defeated. In life there will be trials and tribulations. But God!

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 NIV

Maybe you have been sick and expecting God to restore your health? Maybe you are struggling to let go of a sin, a habit, or a relationship, etc. and are in desperate need of God’s grace and deliverance? Maybe you are experiencing depression, stress or overwhelming fear but you know God did not give you a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. Maybe your marriage or children are in trouble? You have been praying for help to endure and for you to surrender them in God’s hands but still no change. Do not feel defeated. Trust God.

Maybe you are young and have had an awful start in life? Maybe they said you will never be anything? But you know deep down there is more to you and your life than they can see, even you can see?

Feat of the Defeated

Don’t let the devil make you feel defeated, unloved or even a lost cause. That is his portion, not yours.
Pray some more. Pray in faith and pray God’s Word and strategies. Believe that He can and let no circumstances move you to the realm of doubt. Take every thought captive and make it obedient to Christ Jesus. Fight and fight the good fight of faith. Release every area of your life to the Lord and get God’s perspective, value, and instructions in every area. Go after the Lord and allow Him to feel your heart with substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen.

God’s children are not defeated. Jesus won the war for us, and every battle within the war is already provided for and Jesus will also win those. Step out of the way, trust God, and remember You are already on the winning team!

As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. Ephesians 2:1-2

We are now new creations in Christ, those who believe and have received the salvation of our Lord & Savior, Jesus Christ. When the devil tries to bring up our past and forecast our future, let us remind him that he has already been defeated and he has no other chance, destination, or opportunity but down. He wants you to feel defeated and take on the position of a defeated being. But you can not believe his lies or try on his deception.

The feat of the defeated is surrender, surrendering every area of our lives to God. It is also responding to as well as accepting the unfailing and unconditional love of God. Be of good cheer and remember that you are not defeated. Even during the storms and rustling winds can you survive with Jesus by your side, the engulfing of His presence, and within the perimeters of His grace.

Trust God and Set The Captive Free,

Tannika Moore